Peace out, chemo…
I’m done with you! For good! Now I have my Neulasta shot in the morning, my blood and platelet transfusions and antibiotics, then I can get my Hickman out and then I will stop being a full-time cancer patient. Fuck. Yeah.
I have been reading through my big complete Sherlock Holmes and I can’t help picturing Benedict Cumberbatch as Sherlock, so I replaced the pipe with a cigarette and did a drawing.
My boyfriend drew this! He’s awesome at drawing!
Never mind….
Well, just got home from the doctor’s office. My ANC (absolute neutrophil count) was too low, so we’re postponing treatment for another week. So much for getting it over with! I’m pretty bummed, but I have to wait until my counts have come up completely, otherwise my marrow will get alllllll messed up. So, just pretend like I posted that last entry NEXT Sunday :)
Chemo Eve
It’s my very last chemo eve! Tomorrow morning I start my last week of chemo EVER! I’m planning on taking lots of pictures, and on Friday, my last day of treatment, I’m going to dress up and look cute because I AM! And when that bag empties out and the IV pump starts going off, I’m going to give that chemo one last FUCK YOU and come home from the hospital and get the best night’s sleep of my life.
But in reality, I’ll probably start crying because I can’t believe my treatment is already done, and as happy as I am that I will never have to do this again, I’m a little scared to move on. What will my life be without these appointments and transfusions and shots? And what if something happens and this isn’t the end? I’m cancer-free but I’m still scared. And I think I will have to deal with that for a long time.
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[What’s this?! A face picture?! Just so you guys know my face didn’t fall off along with my hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes ;) ]
I woke up this morning with some pretty incredible determination. That I was going to actually look like a normal human being! Meaning I did my hair (lolz, okay I just put a scarf on my baldy self), slipped in earrings (which I haven’t worn since…forever), and made it my goal for the day to try and focus on everything amazing that will be happening shortly.
For starters, some of you will already know because Robert made a post about it, but I’m actually beating this bastard! My spinal chord and I have said good-bye to radiation treatments, my WBC is raising slowly but surely (yay!), and my body in general is starting to feel a little more like mine again. Basically, I finally feel like I’ve got a decent grip on this and that everything is going to be okay. I know it isn’t over yet. Not be a long shot. I still hurt. I have terrible bone pain right now which has me sort of tempted to beat someone over the head with a shoe - but I’m alive. And that isn’t changing anytime soon :D
I can’t thank everyone enough for the incredible support I’ve been getting. You guys truly have been what keeps me going on long days. All my love and pieces of my heart will forever belong to Team Rage-Quit Cancer ♥
Lots and lots of love to this incredible girl!! Here’s to Chelsea and all the other badass leukemia survivors :)](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ly45ztYtA21r09t35o1_500.png)
[What’s this?! A face picture?! Just so you guys know my face didn’t fall off along with my hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes ;) ]
I woke up this morning with some pretty incredible determination. That I was going to actually look like a normal human being! Meaning I did my hair (lolz, okay I just put a scarf on my baldy self), slipped in earrings (which I haven’t worn since…forever), and made it my goal for the day to try and focus on everything amazing that will be happening shortly.
For starters, some of you will already know because Robert made a post about it, but I’m actually beating this bastard! My spinal chord and I have said good-bye to radiation treatments, my WBC is raising slowly but surely (yay!), and my body in general is starting to feel a little more like mine again. Basically, I finally feel like I’ve got a decent grip on this and that everything is going to be okay. I know it isn’t over yet. Not be a long shot. I still hurt. I have terrible bone pain right now which has me sort of tempted to beat someone over the head with a shoe - but I’m alive. And that isn’t changing anytime soon :D
I can’t thank everyone enough for the incredible support I’ve been getting. You guys truly have been what keeps me going on long days. All my love and pieces of my heart will forever belong to Team Rage-Quit Cancer ♥
Lots and lots of love to this incredible girl!! Here’s to Chelsea and all the other badass leukemia survivors :)
Team Kelsey
Just got our bracelets in + an update! Thanks to everyone who reblogged and checked out the site…the more leukemia awareness, the better!!
Grrrrrr
Illusion of outpatient treatment: YAY I’M FREE NO MORE HOSPITAL-JAIL I CAN DO WHAT I WANT AND GO WHERE I WANT!!! Reality of outpatient treatment: I WILL MAKE PLANS ONLY TO BE INCONVENIENCED AT THE LAST MINUTE BY MY BODY/DOCTOR, PROVING THAT I AM NEVER REALLY FREE!!!!!!
Ready for this allllllll to be over, when I can live life on my terms.
Honestly, probably what I’ll be doing for the rest. Of. My. Life.Scumbag WebMD
I’m wearing a du rag, rapping into a T-Pain microphone about AML. Video to come.
Q
Hey Kelsey! Hope you're having a good 2012 so far! Just been getting a little worried about you since I haven't seen you around at all! Let me know how you're doing! Hope everything is okay ♥ ♥
A
Hi Chelsea!! I know, I’ve been awful at keeping up with tumblr…I’ve been a little down lately, but the end is in sight so I’m just trying to keep trucking on through! How are you doing? Tell me all about your treatment! Thanks so much for reaching out and for your donation on my site…you are wonderful. Hope you are hanging in there.
